The Perfectionist

Hey! What's up there? Everything must be good right :)

I'm so totally bored right now, and have nothing to do. So I decided to post something which comes to my mind spontaneously.

Well, what is perfectionist? Perfectionist is a type of person who strives for or demands the highest standards of excellence in work.

And how about about me? I should admit it, I'm so crazy over perfection. I always try to look bright, shine, strong, and everything which is able to make me "look" perfect. Is that good? I don't think so...

I have thought about this tiny-big problem, and found out there's no good of being a perfectionist. Everytime I look at the mirror, I always find a lot of acne spots, and feel so uncomfortable with that. But whenever I tell that to my friends, they say there's not even a single spot on my face. I always try to beautify myself, but don't know what is my purpose of doing that exactly. I always try to be strong in front of people around me, not to cry a lot, although this makes me suffer.

Before, I wasn't this type of person, I let myself go with whatever I like. I always feel comfortable with whatever in my life. But then suddenly, when I feel that I'm definitely on the peak of perfection, have a super happy family, good relationship, a lot of friends, good scores for all subjects at school, and etcetera, it feels like 'Oh God, I really don't want to lose all these things'. But that's just so out of mind. Finally, when I realize that I can't be the one who own the perfection, I learn how to let go of something. It hurts me like a hell, but this is life. Perfection is only owned by Allah.

At last if you try to be perfect, you won't know what is the real meaning of happiness, you won't know what is good for you, and of course you won't know who you really are. Frow now on on, we can learn how to accept ourselves without complaining, stop looking for perfection in life, and start to pull out your true identity.